I am that I am

When confronted with any conflict, be it conflict with yourself or with another, just remember you are what you are and nothing can ever change that!

If you are in a situation that endangers your peace of mind, remember that the way you react to any given situation will determine its final outcome.

You, and you alone are responsible for your life. You are the soul author of your life, and you cannot claim he or she did that to me. Doing so, just keeps you stuck in the problem. We all have a story and we all have problems. Mostly we react to any given problem by attacking it, not seeing that we are one with all and not understanding that each situation harbours in it a huge potential for growth and enlightenment.

No one does anything to you nor can anyone hurt you unless you give them the power to do so. No situation is ever hopeless. No problem is unsolvable. Everyone is doing the best with the wisdom and knowledge they have at the time, just as you are, if they had known better they probably would not have acted in such a way.

Each problem is a gift, that you can rise triumphantly above, setting yourself and the other free from guilt and fear and sin as you do so. Do not give your power away to anything or anyone.

Most people dont understand that what they do to each other, they invariably do to themselves. This is the direct cause for all problems and conflict, the idea of separation. All thought will return to its source, and because we see ourselves separated from everyone else, its easy to blame another for our misfortune, yet this only drives us deeper into misery. Knowing that you are who you are at all times, knowing that no matter what happens outside you, it will never ever change who you are!

I am a lonesome traveller
a creature of the miles
i have made my way in solitude
in my own ragged style.

I have chased the secrets across the earth
the mountains and the seas
i have fallen and i have gotten up
stumbling into ecsatcy.

I climbed the tower made of light
to see what heaven sees
where the angels in their flight
stopped a while and spoke to me.

Aquainted with the underworld
it was there, after i fell
i rode upon the devils back
through all the provinces of hell.

The worlds I have seen
and kingdoms green
all rise and fall
inside a dream.

I sat in council with the sun
upon the shores of time
drinking in the poetry
he poured out like golden wine.

But dont let my rhymes trouble you
take comfort in your days
i ll soon be passing like the wind
and you ll forget all that i say.

The ages turn
we cry to learn
the divine flame
inside us burns.

When Buddha was a traveller
with just a begging bowl
no one could ever beg or steal
what he had discovered in his soul!

The wheel turns
we die to learn
the divine flame
inside us burns.

what for?

Last night I had a very interesting dream which I am complled to share with you. I feel that it speaks to every human being on earth.

I dreamt I sat in a classroom. This classroom was very large indeed, and each pupil had his own elaborate desk. The teacher walked into the room, and this was the very first lesson, to which we all assumed, obviously, that we had been admitted. The teacher however, handed us the most massive and intricate and difficult exam I had ever seen. He explained, that if we passed this exam, we could attend his class. This was very confusing, we thought admittance was automatic and no one had prepared. As we started, I saw that the first page was a sort of contract we had to sign, that said we would be giving him our minds. The rest of the exam was giberrish and utter nonsense. The others were trying as hard as possible to answer the questions. I read a few more minutes and exclaimed out loud- this is utter rubbish. Its nonsense, and I aint signing my mind away!!! You can take your classes and stick em up where the sun dont shine. I stood up to leave.

The teacher, estatic and jumping about in the air, said to me- You are a genius, you have passed the exam!!! You have done it, and in such a short time, you have awoken! Praise the light!

He touched me on my shoulder and said- you have understood that you cannot give your mind and power away, without falling hopelessly asleep. And that most of what you do, is utter nonsense! Everytime you do something, think something, say something, ask yourself what am I doing this for? Who is my thought, action and deed benefitting? What for? What for? Am I doing or thinking this to my benefit or to the benefit of my ego? People just go ahead and do things without even thinking. Am I thinking this for the benefit of my higher divine self, the me of me s, or for darkness, evil or the ego? What for? What for? Ask yourself the right questions, and dont do anything before questioning it.

The most important question you can ask yourself is What for?

change your perceptions and you change your life

Shit happens.....thats just a fact of life.
We all have a story, we all have our hurts and aches and pains and dramas. So I am not going to bore you with mine...

Most people get stuck though, on victim mode, pointing their fingers at someone else accusingly. She did it to me, or I was molested, or I had a very bad childhood....become welcome excuses and sought after escapisms for most people.

I understood quite a while ago that I, and I alone am responsible for my life. But, when I had cancer and bells pallsy a couple of months ago I was kicked so hard in the butt by life, that I quite spontaneously understood that my joy and my peace of mind and my happiness is not ever dependant upon another. Why is it that we have to go through so much trouble and pain until we finally learn???

Being so sick made me realise how precious life is and how much I had taken completely for granted. You know, I had been getting upset left, right and centre at the slightest provocation. If anyone had an argument with me, or I saw some disturbing news on TV, or I had a fight, someone critisized me...or whatever turmoil....whooosh....gone was my peace of mind. And then I finally understood, applause please, that my peace of mind is not dependant upon others. That the only person responsible for my happiness was me. Regardless of what seemed to be happening in my life, no matter what outer circumstances I appeared to find myself in..none of it mattered. It didnt change one bit who I was. That is unless I give it the power to do so.

Then I finally saw that nothing in life has a meaning save what we attach to it. It made life much easier for me. When something happens, a huge bill arrives in the post, a fight, a car crash, a disease whatever, you are still who you are and nothing can ever change that. Now we can either go into full blown victim mode and give all our power away, or we can take the situation and triumph joyously over it. I chose the latter, it makes my life so much more precious and loving.

So now, whenever something goes wrong, I remind myself this is just an illusion, you dont really know why this is happening so no reason to go frantic about it. I am that I am. And such joy life then becomes. It gives you so much space to cultivate other things, like compassion instead of impatience and love instead of fear and joy instead of depression.

Life is so precious, dont wait until you are forced to change by getting really sick like me! Stop squabbling and moping and whining and argumenting about such petty things, they are so useless. Use time creatively instead. Like telling yourself right now how precious you are and that for that reason alone you will work hard at living the most loving, joyous, prosperous and abundant life you can! Dont wait until its too late!